Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I was not there. I did not give birth to him. I am not his mother. But he has my heart as though I were there. As though I did give birth to him. As though I were his mother.
I am in the interesting position of being his step-mother. I care about his welfare, I want the best for him, I laugh with him, I discipline him when necessary and I do his laundry. I pick up after him, I make him meals, I help him with homework (when he has it) and I pray for him. But, I'm not his mother.
So, today, I am writing about a 13 year old boy (young man) who I have no biological claim over. But, my heart doesn't know that.
Brett, you are amazing. You make me laugh and you can bring me to tears with your thoughtfulness. You make my heart swell with pride and hurt when you say something mean. You are a funny, easy to like kid, and my life is blessed because I have you in it. You have made my days brighter and I love you.
I love coming to watch you play hockey or lacrosse or volleyball or basketball. I love playing Killer Bunnies with you. I love taking you to the Winkler Water Park (actually, I like taking you anywhere that you enjoy!). I love talking to you and hearing your ideas on things. I love answering your questions, and I love that you ask me questions even more. I love everything about you.
Here, in my heart, you will always be my son. And you will always be loved.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
I'm thankful for getting to experience something new with Helmut. We went to Niagara Falls today, somewhere he's never been before. It's really nice that we get to do "new" things together, as they are few and far between.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Did I mention that he insisted on wearing his suit to his recital? Mostly so that he could wear his tie...his new favourite accessory. He keeps trying to wear it with plaid collared, button down shirts to school. Hmmm...he didn't get his fashion sense from me!
Sunday, June 20, 2010
It was an excellent little "experiment" in gratitude, and I must say I benefitted from it. I think in a years time, it will be great to go back over it and read all of the things I was thankful for during this 30 day period.
Things over here have been quite emotional. After the trip to Toronto, everything seems so much more real here. Every little thing that happens (or doesn't happen) makes me worry that it might be the last. It's good in the sense that it has made me much more deliberate, and has made me less....stressed...about the little things...either that, or I'm just becoming numb to pain.
On a Father's Day note, today was a busy one. We had church this morning, Brett had a lacrosse game at noon, Khai had a piano recital at 3, and then we all went to Helmut's parents for a BBQ. I wish Helmut had actually had time to relax, but even now that we're home (and he could be relaxing) he isn't. He's downstairs tinkering with something or other.
I'm hoping to be back this week with pictures from our time in Toronto, more of my "Things to be thankful for" and some general musings. Happy Father's Day everyone!
Friday, June 11, 2010
I'm thankful that marriage can last 68 years and still be strong. I hope mine will be that strong in even 50 years.
I'm thankful for photo albums. it was great to see old pictures of Mum. I loved it.
I'm thankful for ROTI!! Yummmmmm. One of my favourite foods ever.
I'm thankful for the opportunity to spend time with Uncle Ralph. It's neat getting to know him - I'm grateful for the chance.
I'm thankful for the occasional time away from my children. Helmut and I were able to walk around Oakville today with Mum, Grandma, Auntie Linda, Uncle Brian, Uncle Derek and Uncle Ralph; while Michelle and Dad stayed at Auntie Carole's with the boys. It was so nice to spend some adult time together.
I'm thankful for SkipBo. I love playing with my grandparents. It's hilarious.
I'm thatnkful that my husband is a temperate man.
I'm thankful to e in the same city as Uncle Derek (right now). I've missed him and I appreciate his sense of humor. (HIGH FIVE!)
I'm thankful for the trip we are going to go on tomorrow. I am both excited and sad to go.
I'm thankful that I'm not going on this trip by myself. I don't think I could do it alone.
I'm thankful that I have brick breaker on my phone to distract me.
I'm thankful for eternal life. I'm thankful that it is given so freely to all who accept Jesus as Lord.
I'm thankful for how much Helmut gives of himself to me. One of the first things I loved (and still love and appreciate) is how giving he is. He has sacrificed so much for me and I love how much he's done.
I'm thankful for our Bible study group. I appreciate their insight and opinions.
I'm thankful for Michelle. It suddenly hit me today as I was talking to her in Toronto that I miss her. I like having her in the city and just a quick drive away.
I'm thankful for our PVR. Magda always calls it "magic T.V." and she's right! It's GREAT!!
I'm thankful for Abby. She has not only filled Hilda and Chris and Elijah's hearts, but she has blessed all who know her as well.
I'm thankful for rediscovering my love of salad!
I'm thankful for Bronwyn. We've been spendin lots of time together and not only do I really enjoy her company, but the boys love playing together.
I'm thankful for time alone with my husband. I miss it and cherish the time we do get to spend together.
I'm thankful for a husband who is fiercely defensive of our children. He is always ready to jump on or jump down anyone's throat who says anything or does anything to the kids. Even when I have to rein him in, I know his loyalty to them is his first instinct.
I'm thankful for lists. Enough said.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
I have been writing all of my things I'm thankful for in my little book, I have just been so busy packing that I haven't put them online. I'll do that when I get home, or if I have time, while I'm there...